Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you,
but I want too.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you,
but I can't move.
I can't look away.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
I just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.

It's getting hard to,
be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to have the feelings?
And look the other way.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know.

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go. (Just so you know)

This emptiness is killing me,
I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize,
it was always there,
just never spoken.
I'm waiting here,
been waiting here.

Just so you know,
this feeling's take control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.
(Whoa,
Just so you know,
Whoa,
Thought you should know.)

I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go,
just so you know.

Just so you know.

Daniel Bedingfield - He don't love you like I love you

He don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't wanna have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

Tell me I should not be feeling
what I am today
Tell me to silence my heart
Tell me we've been here before
And I will walk away from your love

For there is a wall between you and I
And he hasn't been treating you right
I've been watching it all
I've seen you cry
And I just gotta tell you tonight

That he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't wanna have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

Tell me this love's just a feeling and
will pass away
Tell me your heart is a liar
Tell me you're not what I know you are
All that a man could desire

And he doesn't know
Darling, what he's got
But I would treasure you
If you give me a chance
I will make you smile
I will give you a love that's true

But he don't love you like I love you...
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't wanna have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

So why can you not see
The place in your heart that was made for me
Why must you hide yourself away
And why must you fight
The way that I'm holding your hand tonight
Take a chance and give your heart to me

But he don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't wanna have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

He don't love you like I love you
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't wanna have your children
He don't wanna build his life around you

He don't love you like I love you (for there is a wall)
Don't think about you like I think about you
He don't wanna have your children (and he doesn't know)
He don't wanna build his life around you

bloody annoying

i can't believe after sucha long time, i'd actually still forget what time my lessons are.
apparently, i woke up at 7am in the morning thinking that i've got 9am lessons today.
ok, i'll be really honest, i lazied on my bed until it was almost 8 =x
but i washed up quickly and everything.
z.
then i came down, had my usual light breakfast, then i sat down, and i started counting.
9am? plus 2 hours of OM equals 11am, plus 2 hours of lunch break equals 1pm, plus 2 hours of IPT and 1 hour of BSD equals 4pm.
SHEEESH.
my days ALWAYS ends at 5 -.-
so i turned on my com, and there you have it.

oh ya, i finally replaced my faulty mouse :D
i bought the same model, and it looks friggin' gay.
fucking gay shit, yellow mouse -.-
oh well, they ran outta black, and the other colour they have is baby blue.
which is even worse, no?

alright almost about time for me to get going.
i'll add some additional 'enhancements' to my project before i set off.
CIAO!

i hate dreams

dreams are illusions that originate from what we want, or what we think of, at least that's what we've been told.
dreams create false hope and negative, if not, useless emotions.
in short, they fuck us up.

i've been having dreams with the same "plot", so to speak.
the first time felt totally real, but last night's was surprisingly not realistic.
though the feeling is there, i woke up knowing that it's definitely not IT.
lol, any way, since i'm not saying what it is, this isn't really making much sense, so, let's move on shall we?

cause nobody's gonna stop and wait for your sorry ass. the world continues spinning even if your world came down.

ok, so, lots of hanging out with levin and gang.
didn't really went out with anybody else for the whole week.
sheesh.
BELNA!
we haven hang out for sucha long time. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

oh ya, on levin's sister's birthday, we went to a ktv, it was really fun.

aite, i don't know what's the deal with my dad.
he seems to disapprove everything i do.
i can't game, i can't chat, i can't blog, i can't even watch anime?
sometimes it does get really annoying, but thankfully i inherited one of his 'abilities', the ability to filter :D

and i flung my TP, fuck.
don't wanna talk about it.
the disappointment kills me.

went to Seoul Garden with lala, and the sneaky couple.
i was kinda against the idea though.
i think that damn place is fucking overpriced.
i'd rather go to marina.

met them outside Lucky Plaza.


No Picnicking.






whenever i'm running low on caffeine, i'll grab my cup, stick out my hand, and say, "MORE COKE PLEASE!" and there she goes

sheesh, this is making me hungry.
any way, i found this when i was searching for something.


like they say, SAFETY FIRST!

aite, time for some greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen bean soooooooooooooup :D

i spent three days away from civilisation

and yes, i am back.
three days without internet, it does feel like being in some kinda fucking sub-urb area.
heh, with chairs without backrests, not even electricity sockets and a fucking dirty environment.
i'll never go back to that damn place.
oh well, it was booked in a hurry.
booked on thursday, checked in on friday, what can i expect?
ok, speaking of expectations, i wasn't really expect much, but what they gave me was seriously shitty.
went to the toilet to piss, and i could see something swimming in the toilet bowl.
some dumb bug.
changed unit, was better, but still not that good.
they only provided two chairs, so we conveniently 'borrowed' two from some other unit.
lol.

ok, the chalet was shitty, but i still enjoyed it :D
aite, i've got driving lessons at 8am tomorrow morning.
my practical test is this friday!
something to look forward to :D
ok, my back is breaking already.
three days without a fucking sofa, no comfortable chairs, it's really fucking strainous on the back.
next chalet, APRIL!
and guess who's birthday it's gonna be? ;D


Mandy Moore - Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours I pray
to be only yours I pray
to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

do you ask yourself,

what have you done to deserve this?
well, i have.
and it's making me pretty emo now.
heck, i should be happy.

the small little things in life

today, i asked my dad if i could go to levin's chalet.
it took me pretty long to ask him, hah, the fear of rejection i guess.
and when i did, my dad smiled to me.
it's the first time he is allowing me to go to a chalet.
but i always go regardless of his answer.
you couldn't imagine how happy i was.
it felt like my heart leaped out.
i too, smiled.
i had this feeling that he'll allow me to go this time, but when it hit me, it was still pretty unexpected.
i was thinking if he didn't allow me to stayover, then, for once, i'll listen to him.
but i guess it wasn't necessary.
i love you dad!
you can't possibly imagine how much i wanna say it to you.
also, he always send me to school whenever i'm running late, whenever it's raining.
he always makes sure that i'm well fed, got enough cash around.
he told me not to drink too much, and i promised him, a promise which i intend to keep, afterall, he's thinking of my well being eh?

and of course, lala.
she's like an angel, a gift from god.
hahaha, cheesy right? nef doesn't like cheese, but maybe this is an exception.
she'll drive me out for supper in the middle of the night, send me to school when it's raining, fetch me over to my friend's place for stayovers.

all the good in life, overwhelms me.

and i have such fantastic friends and classmates.
hah, i'd say i have all the love i need.

and you think i'll forget about my mum?
she's the best mum you'll ever find.
even if she is a little unreasonable at times, but i guess it's understandable.
cause i'm unreasonable all the time.

haha, and my little sis, she's the annoying one, but no matter what, you're still my sister.
and forbes, heh, no words to describe him.
he's like a best friend to me.

aite, i gotta go already.
i love my family, all my friends, the boys' brigade, my life, and probably god, for making this possible.
ciao, this time, it's love and peace.

if love hurts, then you're probably looking for the wrong kinda love.

yesterday was a happy day

aite, i am officially a primer now, more or less. lol
heh, i'm still a boy, so i guess little things like this makes me happy :D
ok, maybe that's an excuse to cover up my age, LOL.
and of course, there is another thing, that kinda made my day.
it's nothing much actually, but, i'm not sharing :D
my little secret.
but lala knows, or at least i THINK she knows.
and, GOD DAMMIT, it's been sucha long time since we went out to dinner together!
first it was my common test, then you wanted to spend more time with mon.
NO MORE EXCUSES ANY MORE!!!

aite, start puking everyone!
i look so cool in my new uniform :D
LOL.
too bad i don't have a picture of me in my full uniform, YET.
this thursday, stayover at weitat's place, cause friday is BB Day.
yes, full uniform.
lotsa pictures, plus supper, plus fags, plus beer, i think.


once a boy, always a boy

oh ya, and i went to IKEA with lala today.
meat balls was good, spagetti was plain shitty.


the best scent i've ever smelt. good stuff, remember to look out for these ;D

ALRIGHT, BACK TO PRISON BREAK.
PRISON BREAK IS DOPE, however, i still think Southpark is the best :D
but fuck it, the new season isn't out yet.
oh well, all you mother fucking Southpark fans out there, happy waiting balls.

and, god dammit, i'm on the last episode of Prison Break season 2 already.
which means, after this, there'll be more waiting.
the next episode airs only on the 22nd Jan.
FUCK


the inevitable future..

my twisted night

me, terry, levin, his sister, yee hong and may ying spent an entire night watching movies.
kinda like a movie marathon, full of fucking twisted movies.
first, we watched Hard Candy, which they totally did not like, but i thought it was pretty ok?
then we watched Saw and Saw II.
ok, all these 3 movies are fucking twisted.

the first one, Hard Candy, is about this 14 year old genius girl.
she's fucking smart, and pretty darn twisted.
she drugs a guy's dick, and attempted to castrate him herself.
a very pyschological movie.
when the movie was showing the part when she's gonna castrate the guy, me and levin we like grabbing our groins [OUR OWN GROINS, NOT EACH OTHERS'] and going "AWWW", then terry looked at us skeptically, then a few more seconds later he said this, "I FEEL IT TOO" and grabbed his own groin. picture it. fucking funny right?

and the two other movies i believe most people would know.
it involves fucking twisted people that attempt to help people treasure their lives more by putting them in situations that are... ... completely fucked up.

after that we went home, i think it was close to 7am when i reached home?
yea, i changed, laid on my bed, and text-ed weitat.
i'm glad that i did, cause, as predicted, there's something on.
so, without sleeping, i changed, packed up, and went out to have breakfast, then went to school with him.
BOYS' BRIGADE :D
i met up with weilun for breakfast as well.
it's been so long since i last saw him.
and he tried to convince me into joining the BB again, as a primer.
ok, i could see his effort, but i wasn't moved.
i wanted to join, but they rejected me, so i don't want to join now.
you know, it's like, i'm showing them the attitude, the one sammy showed me when i wanted to join. fuck you
but when kahlong approached me, i agreed.
that's just me i guess?
get the right person to speak to me and i'm nailed.
so, i'm in the primer section now, no longer a helper only, my advice?
EXPECT HELL :D MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
alright, i believe i don't really have to go into details of what kinda hell they should expect, oh well, just be prepared for the worst ;D
hahahaha, god, weilun is right, i've become scarier as compared to the last time he saw me :D

any way, i was reading off something from some bulletin board, and i came to realise that it's bloody true.
heck, and girls never realise it.
oh well, it's never too late.
you know how guys say you're pretty, you're beautiful, say that you're the most gorgeous piece of meat in the universe and everything, we would very much feel loved when girls say it to us, although it never happens.
one simple sentence like, "hey handsome", does wonders :D

tomorrow's lesson is at vivocity, interesting huh?
pop culture shit, we're gonna have a debate and everything.
meeting bernard at 12 30 for lunch.

god, i'm so bored.
it's 01 50, i've got lessons tomorrow, and i don't feel like sleeping now.
sheesh.

oh ya, and someone asked me this question.
you are given two job opportunites, the first one, earn 5k per month, fixed salary, no increment.
OR,
work for 1 CENT per day, but your pay doubles after every single day for 31 days, which is a month. after which, you have to work for me for another 30 years WITHOUT getting paid any more.

ok, you're supposed to think of the answer now.

MEANWHILE,
i'm meeting ee chen tomorrow.
we're going down to the BB HQ to get our uniform and everything.
hopefully weitat will be able to tag along as well :D

and my driving practical test is coming soon!
19th Jan.
woot, two more weeks only :D
but fuck, tertiary fling is one 18th.
I FUCKING WANNA GO.
oh well, but i'm not gonna fucking mess up my TP, not worth the risk, although it is one of the most happening parties.
fuck it.

ok, AS I WAS SAYING, yes, two jobs, 5k per month, no increment, OR, 1cent a day, pay doubles after every single day for 31days, then work for free for 30 years.
aite, if you went for the 5k per month thing, good for you ol' chap, you're quite a conservative fella.
but if you chose the 1cent per day, ok, you can calculate this with the calculator in your programs list, but you hafta change it to scientic mode.
2^31 = $21,474,836.48
that's 20 fucking million bucks in one month man.

any way, my share of the week, Fountains Of Wayne - Mexican Wine


Fountains Of Wayne - Mexican Wine

He was killed by a cellular phone explosion
They scattered his ashes across the ocean
The water was used to make baby lotion
The wheels of commotion were set into motion

But the sun still shines in the summer time
I'll be yours if you'll be mine
I tried to change but I changed my mind
Think I'll have another glass of mexican wine

She lived alone in a small apartment
Across the street from the health department
She left her pills in the glove compartment
That was the afternoon her heart went

And the sun still shines in the summer time
I'll be yours if you'll be mine
I tried to change but I changed my mind
Think I'll have another glass of mexican wine
Think I'll have another glass of mexican wine

I used to fly for United Airlines
Then I got fired for reading high times
License expired in almost no time
Now I'm retired and I think that's fine

Because the sun still shines in the summer time
I'll be yours if you'll be mine
I tried to change but I changed my mind
Think I'll have another glass of mexican wine

Think I'll have another glass of mexican wine
Won't you have another glass of mexican wine


slow rock, rocks.

and rick just asked me to celebrate my birthday in MoS, like what he's gonna do.
he's gonna open bottles and everything.
ok, i'm not that rich as to open bottleS [it's a capital S], but the main thing is, it's not really my kinda thing, i like to celebrate my birthdays with my family :D
aite, but i'm not so much into birthdays.
i get birthday blues, i dread it most of the time.
i love birthdays, but not my own birthday, strange eh?
but yea, it's true, though most of the time, when i'm celebrating it, i'll be really happy.
lol

OH YA! AND I GOT 70+ FOR MY CMA TEST!
WOOT, boy am i glad.
i was hoping to score for this test, but everytime when i expect to score well, disappointment follows.
so, my hopes weren't so high, but HELL YES!
my efforts were paid off :D
so happy!
ok, maybe not alot of effort was applied.
but, i stayed up the entire night and studied for it!
oh ya, half of my marks came from MCQ, actually, more than half.
38 marks came from it, lol.
i only got one wrong, else i'd have score the full 40 marks.
and i got full marks for some other parts as well :D
but there's this section that i didn't study for, and came out.
i lost 11 marks there -.-
fuck that.
ok, enough of me bragging.
it's 02 19, time to sleep i guess.
though i'm not sure if i'll go to bed, hah, that's just me, oh well.
ciao, love and piss mother fuckers ;)

The Fray - How To Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life.


i don't know why, but i'm pretty into slow rock, for now.

aite, the hol's over in a blink of an eye, and guess what?
i didn't do shit for these two fucking weeks.
basically, i just stayed at home and decompose.
bloody annoyed by my parents, ah just fuck it.
two pathetic weeks of holidays and they won't even let me enjoy it.

oh well, but life's been good.
two angels stayed over last night.


can you spot them?

and they look abso-fucking-lutely adorable when they're sleeping. [sorry for using your line, HAHA]
actually, my darling cousins stayed over for two nights, but the first night i was 'camping out' at the Pan Pacific Hotel.


this is what it looked like in the elevator


what do you expect?


room service please! can i order two porno movies?


at the end of the day

i don't know why, but i really like the last picture.
it looks so.. serene, in a way.
and as for the porno thing... ...
i accidentally ordered one while fiddling with the god damn tv remote.

any way, i also went swimming with the two angels i mentioned.
i'm having this really bad cough and i went swimming in the rain.
not exactly the smartest thing to do.
oh well


the little guy in blue is zhiqian :D

he's the funniest, he slept with me last night.
and the next morning he kept complaining about me pulling the blanket from him, HAHA!
ok, i'll have to admit it, i'm a blanket puller.

oh ya, and i've learnt how to do this.


if you can't tell, it's a supposed to be..


a rose.

so i guess my holiday wasn't that unproductive afterall, i mean, it's a good trick to pull of at some girls, HAHA.

and since christmas is the season of giving, i gave away two MoS NYE party tix away.


to kevin

but he didn't go in the end, cause it was past 12, and the tix were invalid.
oh well, it's the thought that counts, which means, YOU STILL OWE ME BIATCH! :D

oh ya, and we came up with Who Killed Santa 3.


This is Santa, the murdered victim


he was last seen doing this on 26th December 2006, time 02 01

** GRAPHIC SCENES, not meant for the weak hearted **


a headless Santa was found

after searching the crime scene for clues and evidence, we found two pictures that the killer left behind.


at first, we suspected that the killer deliberately left these evidence behind


but we came to realise that he left it there cause he's too stupid


kids, crime does not pay. the killer was caught, but we don't know what the hell he's so happy about

so, case closed.


and this guy was caught by the fashion police for trying to start a new trend. cool huh

time for me to sleep, hope you guys enjoyed your holidays!


like what this guy did

ciao.

kENNETH says

HAPPY NEW FUCKING YEAR!