i'm a liar

i've never felt like a bigger asshole in my entire life.
of all dreams, this one had to come through.
if there's one thing i can't stand, it's losing, and this time, i lost to myself.
and please tell me i'm not losing to love.
it's déjà vu, the exact regret and remorse.
can you smell it?

my pants are on fire.

teach me how to give up.