sigh, everything's so fucked up now..
the chalet, it's a complete disaster..
now it's left to the 4 of us, HC, Levin, YH and me..
and, to make matters worse..

"你要喝，你自己喝"

oh well, looks like this chalet is gonna be a fun filled one..


maybe i'm starting to become an introvert as well..
i can feel it creeping into me, slowly, but definitely..

don't understand why YH is always against the idea of inviting people..
we've got a great class..

just fuck it..

the highly anticipated chalet, just became a pain in the butt hole..

my holidays are just completely fucked, no parties, fucked up chalet..
and i just couldn't be bothered with the "dates"

i guess the best word to describe things now would be...

FUCK

oh ya, and don't bother about inviting our classmates, cause, i don't wanna see both Levin's and YH's black face..
it'll only make things worse..

Jason's not going, so things would be tonnes duller..
i don't blame him for not going, but i guess he does owe all of us an explanation..
i can't cover his ass for him..


oh, and i don't even wanna start about the cost...

awww man, i'm hating every moment of this shit..

don't know why i came back home..
i was with Levin and YH..
we went to find Bernard just now, his aunt works at Kelly Services..
we were looking for a job so, ya..

now i'm at home sitting alone facing a stupid huge tv that's not even turned on..
facing my dumbass laptop with no music on..

sheesh, life's real boring, hope they find me a job soon..
the one day job is...
lame..

any way, chalet is next week..
was looking forward to it, but suddenly, everything just feels so dull..

last night after watching Love Wrecked, we went home..
hmmm, the movie wasn't that fantastic, if Amanda Bynes wasn't in the movie, i probably wouldn't have enjoyed it..
and probably it wasn't as enjoyable cause i didn't have pop corn to go with the movie?
i LOVE popcorn, but those assholes don't wanna share with me =/
eating popcorn alone is pretty sad, and it's freaking expensive as well, it's like paying for another ticket -.-
more expensive actually, since we went on a weekday..

so i went home after that..
hmmm, for some reason, i alighted 2 stops earlier..
yea, it's the "lake"
ahhh, the memories..
i walked back, took my time..
walked damn slowly, and got horned at by some impatient mofo in his dumbass MPV..
yea, reminiscence..
the path we always took when i send her back..
walked further down, and the path we always take when i send her back from Plaza..
further down, i saw the path i use to take when i walk home from her place..
and the path we took when we walk to Plaza..
heh, and kenneth went to the play ground, his secret "hideout"
the bench, we celebrated our 6th month anniversary there..
candles, it was a beautiful scene..
and i remember the old man that came, hahahaha..
it was funny, the old man asked what we were up to..
it was pretty awkward, but nonetheless, everything felt perfect..
at least back then it did..

and i finally realised why i can't make myself hate her..
because... ...
there are so many reasons for me to love her, but only one reason for me to hate her..
and i guess that one reason aint good enough for me to hate her..

after we broke up, i start to appreciate the songs she loved..
heh, too late huh?
songs like "stick wit you", "理想情人"
理想情人, hmmm..
if i were to rate her out of 100, i'd give her 99..
why 99?
cause i took 1 point off for the lie she told me..
heh, when will i find my 100marks girl?

it's much easier to hate someone than love someone aint it?
oh well, everything's in the past, no point talking about it..
and i never believed that someone can love someone, yet fall in love with another..

actually, i have a really supportive family..
i love them alot, especially my mother..
she's the best mom in the world..
she may be kinda naggy at times, and she'll scold us for no apparent reason..
naturally i'd be pissed right?
but it'll only last 1 minute, and i know she loves me..
that's enough for me already..
i wish that i'm closer with my mother..
some many things i wanna tell her..
and strangely, she's the first person that comes to my mind everytime i'm really depressed..
when i'm really depressed, all i want to do is hug her..
heh, and she pat my head and assure me, "everything will be ok my son"

any way, i asked her about the chalet, and she didn't ask much about it..
i guess she thinks i'm old enough..
she didn't even ask me to ask my dad if i'm allowed to go..
honestly, i wished she'd ask more, and maybe nag at me?
strange huh? maybe cause i want her to care more..
i'm not saying she doesn't care about me or anything..
hmmm, this isn't going any where..

oh ya, and steamboat this Saturday..
it'll be a gathering with old friends..
Weiqin's gonna go serve NS soon, so we're gonna have one last steamboat with him before he goes bald..

hmmm, i had an arguement with Levin just now..
it was over the Zouk thing..
i blamed them for not making an effort to talk to Wallace..
honestly, i felt that it was pretty rude..
and he's like, showing all of us his black face..
if you don't wanna have fun, why spoil the fun for everybody?
sheesh..
sometimes i just can't accept the things he do..
it's like, he always thinks he's right and he always have his "principals"
honestly, his so called principals are nothing but one thing, EGO..
the more i think about it, the more he's like the guy in The Break Up..
come to think of it, we've never done anything he doesn't like as well..
i guess it's always because of his "principals"
"这个是原则上的问题"

guess i won't be clubbin' with him anymore..
he doesn't want to go anyway..
so i guess i just have to wait patiently for Bernard's birthday to come..
and Huijun's as well =P
birthday boys and birthday girls must get drunk! =x
so please be prepared XD

it's been quite some time since i last blogged eh?
cause every night somebody will piss me off..
and when someone doesn't piss me off, like last night, my fucking mind decides to fall into a depression..
great huh?

oh ya, during our exam week, i got to know more about Bernard..
heh, it's pretty hard not to if you meet him every morning, almost every morning, at 7am to study at KAP..
honestly, those mornings were not very productive, at least not for me..
but at least we got to know each other better..
and i know your dirty little secrets now!
HAHAHAHAHA..
but then again, you also know mine -.-
he's a great guy i guess?
and when the fuck are we gonna go to Bali House together?!
or Paulaner?

heh, and i also spent alot of time with HJ..
oh ya, i'd like you all to take note of something, HJ is Hae Jye, and Huijun is Huijun..
so when i say HJ, i am refering to Hae Jye, and NOT Huijun..
confusing?
hmmm, HJ is a guy and Huijun is a girl..
that's simpler i guess =P
and there is absolutely nothing more than friendship between me and Huijun..
understand via?

you
are
a
moron ;D

hahahahaha..
饭可以乱吃，话不可以乱讲

oh ya, and Huijun is back from her chalet..
so fast -.-
and Nat still don't seem to be getting the hint..
oh well, it's not my fault..

OH YA, and we were supposed to go to Sentosa, but Levin backed out last minute..
i was so fucking pissed..
i called Huijun and scold scold scold scold scold..
poor girl =P
of course, i wasn't scolding her -.-

oh, and i suddenly remember what me, Levin and YH were talking about when we walked by the Istana..
Levin suddenly started to sing that bloody song sung by Fei Yu Qing..
Levin : 树上的鸟儿飞
KoStA : why the fuck would birds on a tree fly? then why will they be on the tree?
Levin : ya hor, it's the lyrics la..
KoStA : i know, but why -.-
YH : maybe cause the tree falling?
*roars of laughter*

hahahahahaha, reasons why guys don't gossip?
cause we talk about every single shit we can think of..
but, guys also do gossip =P
hahahahahaha, me and HJ always gossip about people..
and the way he describes some of his friends, it's really hilarious..

oh ya, speaking of HJ, i don't really like his new gf..
i don't think she's a good person..
maybe cause i witness they arguement over the phone..
come to think of it, i've never had an arguement with her over our 1year and 2 months relationship..
it's pretty abnormal actually, not that healthy..
i guess it's because oddball nef doesn't like to talk when he's pissed?
perhaps..
i've never scolded her or anything before..
she did scold me before, but..
hmmm, let's not talk about that eh?

oh ya, and i've given my "book idea" to Weitat already..
i'm gonna pass the book to him soon..
it was something i wanted to make for her, but since i never had the chance to, i decided to give the idea to Weitat instead, and especially since his 1 year anniversary is coming up, and he's clean out of idea, thought i'd give him an idea, make his gf something really special..
in my opinion, it's a great gift..
but it needs alot of time and effort to be done..
something i told myself that i will never spend on another girl..
cause sincerity means nothing..
like what HJ said, what i did was wrong, i should feed her that much at one go, i should slowly feed her, gradually increasing..
oh ya, those words instantly became shit the moment i found out he had a gf, it's like..
those words mean nothing, his words and his actions completely contradict each other..
it pissed me off..
sigh, everything pisses me off now..

oh ya, so many days at mac, only one picture..
hahahaha, pathetic!
and it has no faces in it -.-


MACKERS!

oh ya, we went to IMM on sunday and we saw this bed..


LaLa said it looks like a coffin -.-

oh ya, and i cut my hair, i preferred Yvonne to Alan..
i just love the way Yvonne washes my hair, it's so comfortable!
Alan used one hand and grab my skull..
and it felt like he wanted to break my head or something..
he just grabbed it..
and the hair cut, me and Levin felt that the previous one was better?
credits to Yvonne ;)

and i've also gotten closer with Andy as well..
went to his place and we watched The High School Musical together..
it was a fantastic movie!
GREAT!!!
very very very very very nice!
i can't decide if Click is better or it's better..
both are fantastic movies!
the leading actor and actoress had such great chemistry..

oook, think i'm gonna stop here, it's a super, duper, ultra, mega, pervertic, insanely long entry already..
and i applaude all those patient souls that actually spend the effort reading through this god damn long entry..
THANKS ;D

think i'm gonna go play Final Fantasy or something =P
i picked it up again, and it still rocks..
Best RPG : Final Fantasy VII
Best Gameplay : Final Fantasy Tactics
rated by? : nef =P

oh ya, and if you read finished the entire entry, do drop a note at my tagbox =P
i wanna know who are the patient ones XD

SEEYA LATER ALLIGATORS!

stupid HuiJun, i said now i'm not nice, she says she knows, which means i'm not nice?!
hahahahaha, playing around with words is fun =P

any way, i just watch Click, and it is bloody mother fucking nice!!!
it's like so fucking nice, damn touching..

oh ya, i'm supposed to be in town now, but then Levin ps us, like what he did to me last night, and YH told me not to go..
going also quite pointless, cause just now my mother and my father were out, i didn't take money from them for my hair cut, so i told him that i'm not cutting today..
whatever la, actually i wanted to blog last night, but Levin pissed me off big time..
so i wasn't exactly in the mood for blogging..

oh ya, and Botak Jones aint that great..
quotes from sms to lala "The vr people say until like is God cook one"
hahahahahaha, yea, it's not that great..

oh ya, and i had really bad gastric pains..
when having gastric, please do NOT have carbonated drinks, spicy food, and for God's sake, EAT SLOWLY!
i had a coke, had spicy fries and i ate pretty quickly..
it was terrible..
the pain, it was pretty unbearable actually..
fucked up..
ended up i had to nibble at my food..
but i didn't get to finish it, cause some fucker around us was eating something with vinegar..
i can't stand the smell, so we left..
YH and Jason went home..
HJ was gonna go Clementi to meet her friends, so we went back to KAP there and accompanied her to wait for her bus..
after that me and Levin went to KAP to piss and we took a look at Video EZ..
they were selling some rather cheap VCDs..
after that we went home..

hmmm, yesterday i finally gave in..
i had 2 cigrettes yesterday..
oh ya, and my cough has gotten better..
honestly, i think the cigs helped me..
but my mother thinks that it's her tonic..
i'm not sure la..

oh ya, and i watched Click just now..
the movie was absolutely fantastic..
and like what Mr Jiang said, i'd enjoy it..
and boy, did i enjoy it!
if i were to rate it..
i'd probably rate it 9.0/10 stars
heh, it's very touching..

oh ya, and just now, lala asked about something, which made me ask something pretty silly..
kinda funny as well..

laa : 那个fishball toast会不会很硬?
nef : fishball toast?

ok, if you convert it to English, it should sound like this, is the fishball toast hard?
what the fuck is a fishball toast?

so, i asked, "what is fishball toast? got kaya toast now got fishball toast?"
then she kept laughing..

k la, i'm gonna go watch Click with lala AGAIN..
wooo, the movie is so so so so so so so so so so so so so nice!

bye bye~

heh, went to Plaza with HJ..
we walked there, as usual..
talk talk talk talk talk..
then saw the bus stop in front of us, and there were a few girls in front of us, so?
"let's walk straight"
and we did..
wooo, one was rather cute, and she looked at me, and HJ said she looked at him..
hmmm, maybe she looked at the both of us, for a while, and continued chatting with her friend..
we walked pass her..

nef : ok, look behind you now
we turned back together..
HJ : wah, how you know?

heh, the girl was looking at us, my prediction was right!
decided to let her look at us for a few more seconds before i expose her..
hahahahaha, we saw her looking at us, but she quickly turned her head back..

ok, i'm done boasting now..
time to START studying for marketing..
the paper's at 2..
i'm gonna study a chapter and go to bed..
waking up at 6am, meeting Jason at KAP for MACKERS breakfast :D

MACKERS!
i mac, you mac, we mac mac..
mac, mac, mac, mac, mac, Mac, MAC!

man, my body's dead beat, and i'm coughing like crazy, sheesh..
guess i should quickly clear the chapter and get to bed..
btw, last paper's on friday, but holiday season "officially" starts tomorrow :D
hahahahahaha, can't wait!!!

see y'all then ;D

guess what?
i'm at it again, movies..
this time, it's "The Longest Yard"
and yes, i'm watching it the second time, and it's still bloody good!
well, the first time i couldn't really hear what they were saying..
heh, the movie kicks ass



I really like Adam Sandler, he can really act man, he's freaking funny as well..
Anger Management, Click, The Longest Yard, i've yet to see a movie that's bad with him in it..
oh ya, and i haven watched Click..
WEI LIANG LA!
not coming back liao..
GRRR, i think they probably stopped showing it already =/
oh well..
yea, my papers were ok, i guess i'd pass the both of them..
Marketing tomorrow!
ah, let me slack for awhile more..
i'm gonna go Plaza with HJ to accompany him fuck the ATM machine..

heh, seeya!
aint gonna miss ya =x

i really should be studying now, but i read this from Quinnie's blog, and i really really really liked it alot..
oh well..

any way, it's a love quote..

-Someone out there was meant to be the love of your life; your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. And he'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes, and send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to go see it. You'll put his picture in a frame by your bed and he'll call you to wish you goodnight or just because he was thinking of you. He'll look into your eyes and tell you that your the most beautiful girl he has ever seen, and for the first time in your life you'll believe it...

heh, really sweet aint it?
today i went to Bukit Batok's Coffee Bean to study with Levin, and yes, i did study, but not alot =/
oh well, beats staying at home, completely not productive..
after that we went for dinner at Mackers..
and we talked, alot..
it was great, cause i was feeling that we were becoming distant again..
we talked about everything..
man, we can talk about every single shit on this bloody planet..
from the Proton that's driving past, to the toilet cleaner auntie..
we can seriously talk about EVERYTHING..
it's cool..
and of course, the more sensitive issues as well..
the things we can't say in front of other people?
heh, yea, that's it..
after our bloody long chat i went home, showered, the moment i showered finished Nat called me..
Superb timing i'd say!
heh, so we talked..
it's been quite some time since we've talked on the phone, i've been pretty busy with my life and everything, SORRY!
any way, ya, and Jia Li was invited into the conversation, and nef found out about the 帅猪 thing, which was completely hilarious..
i couldn't stop laughing! it was the first time i heard of it..
i was like, "huh? what? ha... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
yea, then Nat hung up, talked to Jia Li for awhile, then i got busy with studying, and we just held our phones doing nothing for a few minutes, then we said our good byes and hung up..
then Nat called again, and we talked again, blah blah blah, then my dad complained, so..
"i'm sorry, call me back in later ok? my dad, sorry"
"ok, how long?"
"15 mins"
the call never came, oh well..
any way, ya..
then Hui Jun dropped me a testimonial in friendster..
she actually said i'm old -.-
so i messaged her "you're dead"
hahahaha, and we chatted the whole bloody night until now..
her eye was hurting so i chased her off to bed..
she's a nice girl..
heh, BIRDSHITS!
i'm not going to tell you all what it means, at least not now ;)
hahahaha..
ok ok, i'm gonna go STUDY now..
studying is happening.
NOT..

any way, i'm gonna blog about HJ and his gf if i have time XD
and...
fuck, i forgot what's the other thing..
any way, i'll post it when i remember..
don't think i'll be blogging much though..
i've got papers on Mon, Tues, Wed and Fri..
i haven even started on Wed's paper..
i guess no sleep for me fortoday and tomorrow?
i might be able to catch some shut eye on Tues afternoon, if i'm lucky..
any way, CIAOS

i aint gonna screw this up, not this time

NEW SKIN FOLKS!
actually it's an old one, just that i edited it..
it was taken from my old blog..
http://n3fy.blogspot.com/

heh, inside has some of our memories..
hmmm, but memories are just memories eh?

any way, i stayed over at HJ's place 2 days ago, heh, it was cool..


me and HJ


HJ


nef got HJ-fied!

hahahahaha, look at me in his tee and long pants, cute sia..
hahahahahahaha..
it's been a long time since we've been that close, heh, feels like i'm becoming a kid again..

any way, we were supposed to be studying but we ended up gaming until we were dead beat..
then we went to bed, woke up the next day and went for driving lessons together!
he got my instructor -.-
dammit, but the other instructor i got was that bad as well =P
after that i bumped into fel, hmmmmm..
we keep bumping into each other!
well, either she's stalking me, or i'm stalking her, but i'm not stalking her, so she's stalking me?
ha-ha-ha, ok, not funny..

then she offered to share cab to KAP, which i rejected..
hmmm, i shouldn't have rejected actually -.-
oh well, i went to get breakfast at the petrol kiosk as usual..
after i was done, i was hoping she was still waiting for a cab, but she left..
so i took bus to school instead..
HJ went home and i went to school..
reached school, met up with HuaCu and Levin, at cateen 1 as usual..
then we fiddled with that fucking NPSTD shit for about an hour before finally getting the hang of it..
printed out our BMGT notes, binded it and proceeded to the library to study..

me and HuaCu studied while Levin read magazines -.-
i didn't cover alot though, sheesh, i was about to fall asleep when WeiLing tapped my shoulder..
weiLing and YiYing also came to study in school..
heh, but they wanted to study at the Atruim instead, cause the library is too comfortable..
hahahahaha, i have to agree, cause we were sitting at the Lifestyle Area, with sofas..
so the girls left, we studied abit more, then we went to Pizza Hut for lunch!
LUNCH EXPRESS~
their set lunches are so freaking cheap..
oh ya, we met WeiLing and YiYing again when we passed by the Atrium, then me and HuaCu stole some of their biscuits =P
actually, we didn't, they offered us :D

ya, so lunch at Pizza Hut, Levin had pizza, whilst me and HuaCu had curry baked rice..
it wasn't as spicy as i anticipated it to be, but nevertheless, it was GOOD ;D
the service was also good, but probably because there's this big ass manager there?
heard from HuaCu that fella should be some kind of area manager..

any way, after lunch the both of them went to PS..
AGAIN..
to go to the arcade..
AGAIN..

i was heading home, then i decided to go to HJ's place to study, since it's just down the slope..
studying at home is tough shit..
i went home for a shower first, then popped by at his place..

ended up didn't study much as well..
sheesh..
guess i'm gonna go study now..
for all those poor souls who are mugging [ including me ]
HAVE FUN! =P

shit man, i'm really becoming a movie junkie..
fuck it, but this movie is really good, it's hilarious..
i laughed my nuts out..
well, not literally, but you get it..

the movie's called, She's the MAN..
and here's the trailer..


She's the MAN

"Hey pretty lady"
"EWWW, Girls with asses like mine, do not talk to guys with faces like yours"
HAHAHAHAHAHA

that's a damn fucking nice one..
and, Amanda Bynes, is hot, I LIKE, hahahahahaha..
i know not many people will agree with me, oh well, personal preference =P

oh ya, and how the FUCK did they make them SO alike?
sheesh, they look completely alike..

hahahaha, the movie is so so so funny man, i'm gonna dup it into my laptop..
and the music's great as well..
heh, actually i wanted to reveal more jokes to y'all, but i don't wanna ruin the movie ya?
the one i told y'all can be found in the trailer ;)
IT IS DAMN FUNNY, WATCH IT!

oh ya, and i forgot to mention that the movie full of cute guys and girls..
more cute girls actually, hahahahahahaha..

heh, waiting for Laaa to be back then maybe we can watch it together, hahahahaha..
actually, i'm playing it now, heh..
and it's still so funny..

a pity i have to return it tomorrow, sad..
any way, i'm eye-ing 2 more movies, one of it got loaned out, and the other one, maybe i'll rent it tomorrow :D
can't remember the titles though =x

I LOVE MOVIES!
and, I LOVE CARROT JUICE!

ok, it has no link..
any way, i've been clearing my driving lessons recently, had 2 practicals yesterday, and 2 today, 2 more tomorrow..
and i pass my Final Theory Evaluation yesterday!
actually it's no biggie, heh..

any way, think i'm gonna go study now..

yours sincerely,
the movie-junkie KOSTA

heh, guess what?
i watch Green Street Hooligans again, it was awesome man, i wanna watch it again!
hahahaha, i mean, it's really so fucking cool..
ok, my favourite quote from the movie, "The best isn't knowing your friends' have your back, it's knowing you have your friends' back"
heh, like what the Brits would say, REAL SWEET, AYE MATE!

if you guys are interested, i Google-ed Green Street Hooligans' synopsis for y'all ;D
GREEN STREET HOOLIGANS SYNOPSIS

oh ya, and for the girls, the guy in the movie, Pete (Charlie Hunnam), is HOT HOT HOT! man, how i wish i had his body -.-
btw, i'm straight :D
there's no pretty gals in the movie, oh well..
but the movie rocks, BIG TIME!


heh, any way, Audrey uploaded all the pictures already!!!
and i'm gonna share them with you!
so, here goes ;)

Ephraim Cup 2006!!!


me and zZh, unseparable brothers


after a match


there's even a close up of me! which i didn't know..


look at his boots, sheesh, gross..


96 is James, who agreed to take 96, which he regretted


this was the guy


that yelled, "MARK THAT 69, HE'S COMING!" ROFLMFBO


and these 2 little boys are my juniors, and my brother's friends, btw, that's LYY, our BEST DEFENDER!

time to introduce to y'all our teams


we sent two teams, and this is team A


and team B


MY TEAM ;D


69? 96?


Church friends


the kids


Old birds, and next time please remind me to stand properly..


We're one big family


a fun one too!


and i hope you've learnt your lesson LYY, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and for the finale, we have..


the 69, 96 brothers! HAHAHAHA

i'm gonna go take a shower now, SEE Y'ALL

Dreamz FM - Should I Stay

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…


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heh, i guess i finally found a song that best describes how i feel..
honestly, for us, we're quite lucky eh?
i mean, we're the couple that were "accidentally in love", in a way..
well, fate brought us together, and i guess it's destiny that we're meant to part..
nobody expected the both of us to get together, neither did anyone expected the both of us to part..

that's life for you..
unexpected, hard to grasp..

i guess i owe her an apology for what i said..
i mean, i was behavin like a jerk and everything, although, i was completely blown off my feet when she said, "go out with friend also cannot"
i mean, afterall, i dare say that i've never ever restricted her, and, a date's a date, ahhh, let's forget about it..

i'm sorry for what i did at VR-zone..
i said some damn fucked up stuffs, and i guess an apology wouldn't make up for it..
oh well, i mean, if i were her, i'd be damn fucking pissed, and an apology aint gonna make up for it, so i guess, i'd understand if she doesn't accept my apology..


any way, my dad finally moved my bed away from the cupboard, and when he did, i was like, "what the fuck" i mean, when he should have moved it away, he doesn't, and when he shouldn't he did..
cause, that cupboard holds memories, all of my memories actually, everything she's ever made for me they're all inside..
sigh, and i picked up my courage and opened it, the first thing i saw was the puzzle i made for her, "I LOVE YOU", then i saw the card she made for me..
and i closed my cupboard, it was too much for me, my heart was breaking up again, then i felt... a kind of emptiness inside of me..

heh, and then Jocelyn called me, it sort of felt like an interview actually..
so, what colour do you like?
*answers*
what movies do you watch?
*answers*
what sports do you like?
*answers*

ok, then i realised that i'm not even trying to maintain a conversation, so i decided to at least give it a try..
so we had a small little conversation and she had to hang up, and then i got Nat to call me..
so we chat until i was kinda tired to keep the conversation going, so we hung up, and i had my long awaited sleep..

heh, sleep all the way until 12+ the next day, woke up to see Jocelyn's and Nat's SMS..
actually, i did hear Nat's sms last night, but i was too tired to pick up my phone, so i went to sleep instead..
heh, i replied neither of them..
Jocelyn seems so... desperate..
heh, thank God she doesn't have an internet connection..
*evil laughter* muahahahahaha

heh, and yesterday's soccer was great, and some how, Audrey seems to be attracting me in a way?
feminine?
i've seriously don't know why..
heh, and guess what?
Nicola is back! again, and from what i heard, she's gained some weight..
hmmm... ...

"Nicola is back"
Jimmy sort of emphasized on that and looked at me with a kinda cheeky look..
"what?"
hahahaha, i act innocent, acted like i didn't care, wahahahahaha..
honestly, i don't really care..
hmmm, there was nothing between us, nothing at all, no feelings, nothing to say to each other..
"but she gained some weight la"
"oh, where? on top?"
*roars of laughter from everybody*
hahahahahahahaha, ok, Nikky is considered well-developed at the age of 14, very well developed actually, especially if you compare her with Singapore girls, she's like woah.. she's pretty hot actually,
She's English mixed Chinese, heh, my favourite kind =x
wahahahahaha, kinda like Lana from Smallville?
heh..
and now she's 16, is she over-developed?
HAHAHAHAHAHA, ok ok, let's not get overboard here..

heh, and there's something i wanna share with you guys, and that's...
MY JERSEY!


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


ROFLMBO - Rolls on floor laughing my balls off


hey, you guys took all the nice numbers away, so i thought i'd try to be a little funny eh?

well, it's actually more than a little funny, it's freaking funny!
HAHAHAHAHA..
"HEY!!! MARK THAT 69! HE'S COMING!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, i'm like running and laughing away..

heh, they all took the pretty numbers away, so i thought i'd take a kinky number like... ...
69

HAHA..
"kenneth, do you know that's an illegal number?"
"oh? really?"
hahahahahahaha, acts innocent..
then my juniors, yea, my brother's friends, asked why is that number illegal..
i was like, "you really don't know?"
*roars of laughter*
then i forbid them from telling the kids what it meant, then they were like, "never mind, ask Forbes, he sure know"
heh, but in the end they kept pestering me, and i told them..
"oh... yuck! gross!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, hey, it's not like i wanted to tell you guys huh?
you guys asked for it!
i'll blog about the day after Audrey comes online and send me the pictures we took ;D

heh, by the way, i just came back from my 下午茶 with my parents at Bukit Panjang Plaza, we had Kaya Toast and i had 2 eggs..
after that me and Laaa went to Sweet Talk..
as usual, Milk Tea with pearls for her, and for me, i had an Ice Blended Chocolate..
ok, which tasted strange, cause there's this tea taste in my Ice Chocolate!
sheesh, i still prefer the one at Each-A-Cup in my school's library!


heh, a photo i took a freaking long time ago.. and how do you know it's old? heh, the stud on my ear is proof, heh, i removed it like 1 year ago? close to

so now here i am, slacking, still drinking my weird Ice Chocolate, and that Jocelyn wants to call me again -.-
God dammit..
heh, can't she tell i'm not interested?!
for crying out loud!

whatever la, i told her i'm not free to chat, and that's that..
take a hint gal..

heh, by the way, i didn't manage to catch the fireworks this year, except from my uncle's place..

well, our class abandoned me again, nothing new..
then last minute Christ had something on, some friend's birthday party, oh well..
so no fireworks for nef this year..

hmmm, i haven been feeling very good this few days, heh, especially since i screwed everything up between me and YL..
my mother asked me if i'm still in contact with her, and i was like, "yea, but i had an arguement with her, and we haven contacted each other ever since"
well, it's not her fault..
i fucked everything up..
heh, what a jerk..

and very fortunately for me, i chose a damn nice day to pick a fight..
it was on thursday, and i had a big test on friday, and as usual, i didn't finish studying, and after our quarrel, i couldn't concentrate at all..
i mean, ok, i already get distracted easily, and after that big arguement we had, i just couldn't concentrate at all..
it's like, i keep thinking about it..
heh, and ended up i didn't even finished half of what i needed to study..
luckily for me, HuaCu was sitting in front of me and i could see almost everything he wrote!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
we were all sharing answers la, i'm sorry, but the teacher's pretty stupid..
no cover page -.-
everybody's MCQ probably has the same answers, heh..
so i guess i didn't screw up that bad, maybe except for the short essay questions part, but i've already passed the module before i took the test, so everything should be ok, i guess..

any way, i've having migraines everyday for don't know how long already..
maybe it's a sign that my head's gonna explode soon?
no idea..
heh, but if it's gonna blow up, i really hope it'll blow up soon, cause sometimes it's abit unbearable..
if i suddenly burst into a sprint, after i stop i'll have a throbbing head splitting migraine which completely sucks ass..
it feels like my whole head is gonna blow up!

heh, after every session of soccer it feels that way..
sheesh..

well, i should really start studying now, i'm gonna go cancel the driving lesson i booked on next week's monday..
since it's on my exam week..
i booked it on that day cause i thought my exam week is THIS week, but this week is my study break, heh..
hopefully i'll clear stage 2 by this week..
and i'm gonna go take my fucking evaluation again, which i failed by 1 question..
fuck -.-

ok, so see y'all!
and once again, i'm sorry


Random-Fact-Of-The-Day
Dictionary.com is my best friend

ok, CUBE sucks


pretty huh? i like the invitation card alot


Lala, me, Yang Wen [ did i get your name right? ] and Quinnie


opps? p.s - i like this photo ;D


hmmm, smokers should know what i'm doing


me, duh?


me and Lala


Beer anyone? :D


i look drunk


i'm gonna kill you


me and Lala again, i like this photo alot :D


poor nef getting bullied


poor nef getting bullied AGAIN


CHEERS Y'ALL!

and for the finale...




that's for being in my photo. HAHAHAHA

ok, like what i said, CUBE sucked, the place is small, and it was rather crowded, we waited in line for quite some time, then Lala decided to call Ivan, and he brought us in right away -.-
why can't call earlier sia..

went in, squeeze here, squeeze there..
and the whole damn place is packed, packed with my favourite kinda people..

any way, we had to squeezed in to join Bryan and gang for awhile, then we squeezed back to the other end of the bar, then the mother fucker told us we can't order there, so we squeezed back..
order 3 jugs of beer and went upstairs to the balcony to chill..

btw, the whole of the 2nd level is not air-conditioned..
yea, so we were at the balcony..
and the moment we reached there, they were like, "TAH!"
so we did finish it up, although we were slower..
me and Lala shared a jug, then YangWen and Quinnie shared a jug..
the 3rd jug was sherlyn's [ i'm not sure if i got her name right as well, there's like a few version of her name, but they all sound the same any ways ]
she had some trouble finishing it so we helped her..
then we ordered 2 more jugs of beer..
one jug was knocked over by Lala after it was half drunk i think?
the other one we took a freaking long time to finish..
all of us weren't high, but the beer made all of us uncomfortable -.-
damn fucked up..
then when we finally finished, we went downstairs to dance..
the moment we decided to dance, the music started to suck..

so? we ordered a jug of vodka lime..
which was tasteless..

then we odered tequila shots..
all of us had one each, but unfortunately, they had no lemon left, so we took something else..


CANDY ANYONE? :D

i LOVE candy! especially these kinda candy!!!
but eat too much later get diabetes, oh well..

and nooo, we still didn't get high and the crowd and music sucks..
fuck that..

so we decided to leave..
the girls decided to go KBox at Cine..
actually, more like Lala and Yang Wen decided for us..
they were like, "LET'S GO SING EMO SONGS!"
so we decided to head there..
sherlyn didn't join us, she went home..

so the 4 of us took a cab down to Cine..
for our drinks we had a jug Honey Lemon, and a jug of beer..
ok, i seriously do not know why Yang Wen ordered beer..
i was like, "you sure you can take beer?"
"actually, no"
then why she order sia!

never mind, i sat there, ate one plate of peanuts, and took a nap while the 2 of them sang..
i don't remember what happened after that cause i fell asleep =x

well, before i slept, i felt really miserably and quite emo..
don't really know why..
heh, so i sms-ed WeiLing, cause she's probably the only one that's MIGHT be awake..
and fortunately for me, she was awake..
so we sms-ed awhile..
heh, she really never fails to make me smile..
THANKS GIRL! :D
and, coincidentally, everytime i'm depressed and stuff, she'll always be there!
be it online or sms..
it's like... hmmm, i don't know, just sucha coincidence?

but of course, the smile didn't last long..
not like it's her fault huh?
like what YL told me, "you should let go already la"
i remembered the sentence because of the LA..
sometimes the word LA is pretty reduntant, but people still put them in sentences, for example, "have you completed your homework?"
"do finish already LA!"
i mean, the LA is like so fucked up eh?

any way,
heh, it's not like i don't want to, letting go is easier said than done..
afterall, we're different..
something i held so dear, how can it be possible for me to let go just like that?

and yes, the pussy teared again..
fuck that, i've told myself that i'll not cry or tear or whatever shit for her any more, heh, i guess i can't really control huh?
sheesh, fag fag fag..

fuck that..
yea, so i woke up when we had to leave, and Lala wasn't feeling well..
she puked, and i waited for her outside the girls' toilet..
then after that we took the lift down, said our goodbyes and went home..
on the way home SOMEONE called her and they talked all the way..
then when we were reaching home already she was like, "omg, i'm going to puke, i'm going to puke"
"we're reaching already"

luckily she didn't puke on the cab, we quickly paid the cabbie, then i opened the door swiftly and quietly..
eh, i damn skill ok, i open the door no sound one XD
usually there'll be a loud "TENG" sound..
so i opened the door and she rushed upstairs..

i took off my shoes, socks, blah blah, hide my cigs and went upstairs..
i saw that all the lights were closed so i assumed that Lala went to bed..
so i also went to bed..

and slept alllllll the way until 10+ in the morning, i woke up and went back to sleep..
it happened a few times until my mother came to wake me up at about 12..
we were going to my Granny's place, she cooked lunch for us..
we were going over to her place cause the fireworks can be seen from their place!!!
cool huh?
so i showered, got ready and we went over together..
brought my laptop, but there was no connection for me to tap..
sad..
so i played Dota against those dumb AIs..
watched, "Shall We Dance" and "Terminal"
both were great :D

hmmm, NuoXi asked me, "Where is YuLing jiejie?"
i was completely caught off guard..
"erm... ... at home lor"
heh, i could feel my heart sinking, thumping hard..

oh ya, and lunch was nice as well..
after the 2 movies it was time for the parade, so we tuned in and watched it while having dinner..
dinner was also great..
except when my uncle asked, "where is your girlfriend?"
"erm, we broke up"
"oh, i didn't know about it, really"
"never mind"
another uncle "so who was the spare tyre?"
well, i didn't choose to answer the question
but i said this "she has a boyfriend now"
which basically makes me the so called "spare tyre"
damn that sucked, i was like taking my food with my head the whole time..
sigh, i just didn't want to look them in the eye, otherwise i'll get fucking emotional again..
then ANOTHER uncle said, "it's her loss"
heh, i agree with that, but she's not the only one that lost something, i lost someone that i loved with all my heart..
heh, too bad for me i guess..

enough with that shit..
after dinner, the main "dish" came..
FIREWORKS!
*boom Boom BOOM*

nothing special actually, didn't like today's fireworks performance, hopefully the one on Saturday will be better ;D

oh ya, Nat told me she was caught on the camera during the NDP, sheesh, and i missed it..
haven seen her in person yet, heh..
guess it'll have to wait, cause

i
am
broke

FUCK

after that we went home, then i turned on my laptop, surfed the net lil' abit, chat for awhile, took a shower, and TAH DAH!
here i am blogging..

OH YA, and i decided to stop smoking last night..
all the cigarettes were making me pretty unwell, heh, but i still continued smoking, cause i hate it when people smoke around me, the smell makes me sick, literally, so when i smoke i won't feel as bad..
i know it's a fucking bad excuse, oh well..
and also cause i wanted to get high?
yea, but the effects can't even last more than 5 fucking minutes..
God DAMMIT..

heh, i'm left with 7 sticks if i'm not wrong, hmmm..
wonder what i should do with them..

any way, i'm kinda hungry now so i'm gonna to eat my breakfast+lunch now..
after that i've gotta study for tomorrow's test..
fuck Fuck FUCK..

SA YO NA RA

the sleepover was cool :D
although we didn't really do much, but the bond was there..

sigh, Jimmy is going to Malaysia soon, sheesh, boy are we gonna miss him..

we played Winning 11, which i lost..
crap, my team's performance was fucking low..
i'm not kidding, i mean, all of my passes and crosses were inaccurate, GOD DAMMIT!
they were like, you damn suey, and when i had a chance to score, it fucking it the pole!
*spits*
heh, but i guess that's that..

after that we went for supper!
yes, kenneth LOVES suppers..
we all had Hokkien Mee, and after that me and Wei Tat had SECONDS!
i had 2 Roti Prata, one with egg and one without, Wei Tat ordered one with egg..
man, the prata is good, i caan eat it without adding sugar or curry, i wanted more but i restrained myself, heh..

after that we went to 7 11, and me, James and Ee Chen had a bottle of Heineken each..
Wei Tat didn't want to drink, Jimmy and Sherwin can't touch alcohol..

yea, so we did the usual, chit chat and stuff, and we talked about me and yl..
as usual..
Wei Tat told me that if he was me, he'll hate her..
if i wasn't myself i'll hate her too, i mean, it's like, natural right??
guess i'm just abnormal..

we stopped talking about her cause i was getting really sad and stuff..
and some of us went to bed, some includes me =P

woke up in the morning, showered, ironed my clothes and changed..
and we were off!

OMG! KENNETH LOOKS DASHING IN FORMALS! =x
hahahahahahaha..

no la, nobody said that =/
maybe cause they're all boys?
HAHAHAHA

but it wasn't much, cause it was just a plain long sleeve white shirt and black pants with black leather shoes..
i looked smart, but i also looked like i was from SHATEC..
which was quite a turn off..

any way, that day was great, our boys...
how should i say this, hmmm, ok, they weren't a complete floop ;)

but they didn't sing the national anthem, unlike what i told them to..
and guess what?
PUNISHMENT TIME!
ok, like i said before, when it comes to BB, i am VERY strict..
so i punished them, according to what i think is right..
and of course, what i expect from them, i expect from myself as well..
when i punish them, i do the punishment with them..
and we punished ourselves for being late as well, so basically, we did more than the boys..
and after punishing them, i asked them, "Do you know why i punished you all?"
*silent*
i was expecting it, so i explained
"did i ask you all to sing the national anthem?
*a few boys reply*
"DID I ASK YOU ALL TO SING THE NATIONAL ANTHEM?"
"YES SENIOR!"
"DID YOU ALL SING?"
"NO SENIOR"
"I won't punish you all without a reason. There's always a reason for everything"

"Anybody not happy?"
"NO SIR!"
"don't call me sir, call me senior"
"NO SENIOR!"
"wah, so little people?"
*everybody shouts*
"NO SENIOR!"
"ok, so everybody very happy right?"
*looks at watch*
"since all of you are happy, we'll have another 1 hour and 45 mins of drill!"
*VIOLENT OBJECTIONS*
hahahahaha, so i asked them on a more serious note
"i'm serious la, anybody not happy? not happy can scold me, i'm fine with it, just don't scold my father mother"
*all boys laugh*

heh, and i wrapped everything up, fall them out and went home!
James say he feels that the boys respect me alot, actually, i feel it too!
muahahaahahaha..
afterall, respect has to be earned, not given, right? ;)

i LOVE the Boys' Brigade, and i LOVE 54th COY! :D

Kenneth says, touch anything but kids, cigarettes and drugs..

heh, ok, i'm going off for my Final Theory Evaluation now, wish me luck :D

took a few pictures in my BB polo =P


and this is my favourite ;D

staying over at Wei Tat's place tonight, James, Sherwin, Jimmy, Jackson and Ee Chen are all going..
it'll be cool..
i think =x

i'm OFF!
SEE Y'ALL!

Kenneth says that Smoking is bad, and he should seriously stop smoking..
cause Kenneth has weak lungs..


heh, and this is my first ever cigarette pack

hopefully the last, seriously don't like myself to smoke, but then again, i don't really know why i'm smoking..

heh..

NDP Rehersal here i come~

FUCK LA!!!
KNN, I JUST SHOWERED, HAPPILY PLAYING ONLINE POOL AND EATING CURRY PUFF, SUDDENLY GOT SOMETHING TOUCH MY HEAD, FOLLOWED BY A "thud" SOUND FROM THE SOFA, TURN A ROUND, SEE A BLOODY LIZARD..
NOW I MUST SHOWER AGAIN =.=

think tomorrow i go buy 4D see how, hahahahahahaha..
seriously, thinking back, it's DAMN FUNNY..

any way, song-of-the-week is :


Jaci Velasquez - Imagine Me Without You

As long as stars shine down from Heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need


In my life, You're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You
I need You

Chorus:
Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without You there to see me through
Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without You


When You caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard my calling
And You rushed to set me free

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You
I need You

Chorus

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You
I need You

Chorus

I can't imagine me without You



============

here a music video of it :D
ENJOY ;D

I saw this on an advert for a movie..

"Love is never having to say goodbye"
heh, that's bullshit, i'll tell you my version of love..

Love is the present, cause we'll never know what will happen tomorrow..
Treasure what you have ;)

heh, that was what i told sotong as well..

time for DINNER~!

ok ok, kenneth decided not to be lazy and blog about the past few days..
since someone... HINTED about me not blogging -.-

wait, i have to recall, my mind seems to be slightly slower cause of all the headaches i've been experiencing lately, and yes, it's a daily thing, and i'm quite used to it already, although sometimes it'll get really Really REALLY irritating..

ok, on friday, went to school early, reached at about 11 30am, INTENDED to do our report, but when i reached school, Jason decided to go for lecture, so?
sat at canteen and MSN-ed all the way until 2pm, went to workshop to hand up our project and headed down to King Albert Park for some Mackers..
after Mac, Levin and YH went to BBDC for their first bike theory lesson, which turned out to be lame, pointless and a complete waste of time, like what i told them..
and as for me, i headed down to my secondary school, Dunearn Sec!
ok, there's this rehersal for NDP, and i went back to visit my BB boys :D

there's one thing you should know before i carry on..
when it comes to BB, especially during parades, i expect everything to very orderly and stuff..
my boys must be ALERT, and discipline, if not..
heh, be prepared then..
afterall, we are a uniform group, we have to be discipline, furthermore, we're a Christian Organisation, we have to live up to our name eh?
Sure and Steadfast..

so, they started practising first, and...
ok, kenneth have some really HIGH expectations when it comes to BB, i expect alot from them..
i've also been a boy once, and i put in alot of effort, and naturally, i expect the same from them..
so?

"LOOK UP!"
"LOCK YOUR ARMS"
"ALERT!"
"WATCH YOUR DRESSING"
"DID YOU POLISH?"
"YOUR BELT IS TOO LOSE"

but i'm very disappointed, we're not supposed to hand out punishments anymore, so it's abit hard to keep them disciplined..
but then again, i don't really care..
i didn't punish them on that day though, heh, guess we'll have to wait for the next training camp, then i will make sure they all die..
i told one of my boys that i'll make all of them cry, muahahahahaha, i am evil, but one has to make sacrifices to gain things, i'm just trying to make them into MEN..
i've been through it, and i took it like a man, i didn't cry of course -.-
but the kids these days, sigh, quite hopeless..

and there's this mother fucker, Godwin, God Win, what a stupid name..
he's a stubborn bastard that has no respect for authority..
since Sec 1 until now, he's sec 4 now, he has absolutely no respect for any seniors, and i've simply had it with him the other day..

"Is Godwin part of the contigent?"
"yes"
"why he didn't fall in with you all?"
"... erm, i don't know"

fine, the CSM, in case you don't know CSM is the incharge for the day, doesn't know, so, i asked Godwin nicely first

"Godwin, fall in with them"
ignores
fine
"Godwin, why you don't want to fall in with them?"
ignores
pissed
off
already

wait, wait, wait..

"james, go tell the teacher-in-charge that Godwin doesn't want to fall in"

he went to tell the teacher-in-charge, and he do nothing..

"james, you tell Godwin if he don't want to fall in, then he'll not join in the rehearsal, tell him to go sit down at the concourse"

james went to talk to him, fucker didn't fall in with them, and stayed on..
SUPER
PISSED
OFF

"Godwin, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO FALL IN WITH THEM, THEN YOU'RE NOT PART OF THE CONTIGENT, WHEN THE PARADE STARTS, I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOU HERE, YOU ARE NOT PART OF THE PARADE, WHEN THE PARADE STARTS YOU GO TO THE CONCOURSE AND SIT"

shocked..
so? went to complain to the teacher-in-charge..

so we settled our differences then..
"he's not even a primer, he has no respect for me why should i respect him?"
you see, this bloody fucker expect me to respect him when he has no respect for anybody the moment he came into the BB, and everyone fucking knows about it
"Godwin, you are well known for being STUBBORN"
he didn't expect me to be so straightforward, and the teacher-in-charge, Mr Poh, no, he's not Hua Cu -.- was kinda blown off his feet as well..
ok, then Mr Poh basically tried to meditate..
i know i'm in the wrong, first, i am not in uniform, second, i actually do not have much authority..
Mr Poh : if you do the right thing at the wrong time, the right thing also becomes a wrong thing
you think i don't know meh?
Godwin says he's trying to help by "GUIDING" the CSM from outside of the contigent..
boy, you can go suck my balls, you do not know SHIT about drills..
Mr Poh : Godwin, i know you are a DRILL MASTER
ok, if you looked at James face, you can see him smile for a split second and then he calms down..
if you looked at me, i immediately laughed and turned my head and continue laughing..
hahahahahaahahaha
JOKE OF THE YEAR
Godwin, the DRILL MASTER..

i'd be fucked if he's the drill master..
i can do drills a thousand times better than him with my eyes closed..

these kind of things, no need to be shy, it is funny, just laugh..
Mr Poh continued his pep talk and we pretty much listened..
in the end he "packed up" everything with a prayer..

and he told me the shake Godwin's hands..
fine, i did that, but if he expected me to apologise, he can jolly well FUCK OFF!
i mean, i know i'm in the wrong, but i'm not gonna say sorry, no matter what..
and knowing Godwin, he probably still thinks he's right..
what a moron..

any way, parade ended, and James had to wait for his girlfriend, or rather, stead, as what they call themselves..
speaking of STEADS, this is one thing, that i do not agree with..
heh, YL used it once on us, and i talked to her about it, and she never used it again..
firstly, i do not recognise the word STEAD..
it's stupid, it's immature, and it is so... how do i say it..
hmmm, it's not as close as girlfriend..

don't believe you try saying it
"hey, this is my stead"
"hey, this is my girlfriend"
which one do you prefer?
i prefer the latter..

also, i've never used stead before..
personal preference i guess..
heh

any way, ya, they're having this concert rehersal as well..
see little girls dancing around on the stage, and malays with their electric guitars making alot of noise on the stage..

to summarize the concert, i'll use 3 words..
it was boring.

yea, that's that..
his little girlfriend went to change and we left..
oh ya, and his girlfriend is really little -.- 14 this year, small and skinny..
james is slightly taller than me and fat, so it's abit opposite of each other, and james is 17 this year..
sheesh did i say he's fat?
ok, because he IS fat HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and he knows it, because we remind him XD

so they went for dinner i think, and i went home..
watched the last episode of the 9pm show on channel 8..
the ending pissed me off..
i don't like the ending, period..

that's the problems with local productions, they fuck the ending..
although some people liked the ending, but in my opinion, there were still quite a few things that were left unsettled, hence, making me not very... satisfied..

so that's that, friday's over with..
time for saturday..


11am in the morning
*phone rings*
"eh kenneth, where are you? want to come out for soccer?"
*still half asleep*
"huh... ... where?"
"bukit panjang, street soccer court, eh come down la"
"orh... ... oooook... ... what... ... ... time?"
"11 30 at bukit panjang LRT station"
"ok... ... until... what... ... time?"
"about 1 pm then we're leaving"
"oook..."
"SEE YOU THERE AR!"
"yea... sure... bye"

so i woke up reluctantly, brushed my teeth, came downstairs, turned on my laptop and had breakfast cum lunch..

then i realised i won't be able to make it, so i sms-ed Jimmy to go ahead without me, i'll join them after my meal..
well, i eat pretty slowly =P
so i took my time and i arrived at 12+
hahahahahaha, luckily we played until 2+ instead of 1, otherwise my trip would be quite a waste of time eh?

had fun though, and after that i was asked to join them for their BBQ, which i agreed to..
so?
went home, with a terrible terrible headache, it was the worst one i've had recently..
felt like my head's gonna blow up..
so, i went home, drank a bottle of Yakult, and it felt good..
cause i was feeling really warm and everything..
poured a glass of carrot juice, ahhh, my favourite, felt really good..
went back, since there's a little bit left, i poured everything out..
had half a glass of carrot juice, then my mother told me she made barley, so i took a cup and added ice, ahhh, good, i love barley too..
BARLEY and CARROT JUICE, my 2 favourite drinks in the world..
ahhhhh, shiok, then i drank yet another cup..
sheesh, i really drank alot..

actually, i decided the shower, pop a few panadols and take a nap before i head down for the BBQ..
then, i saw my brother playing Dota, so i sat beside him and watched him, then when his game ended i joined him, and we played 3 games together..
then i realised i was late and i haven showered!
so, i went to shower..
chose my clothes, and made my hair..

and i went to meet James, his girlfriend and Wei Tat..
surprisingly, they we even later than me -.-
they watched CLICK and said it's a good movie..

hmmm, i'll comment about it, AFTER i watch it with Wei Liang and LaLa :D
he's coming back 2 weeks later..

then we headed to Sammy's place..
and the guy, was seriously, trying to be funny
it was only 6+
and he sms-ed us

"the BBQ is ending, see you guys next year"
WTF?! not even 7pm and the BBQ is ending, i bet there's not much people there, that's why he said his
then he sent another sms, which i can't remember..
was something something then BYE BYE..

ok -.-
we just went ahead and guess what?
i was right, cause everyone was late so he did that..

actually, i wasn't really a BBQ, it's more like, Satay only..
then the usual mee fen, and they odered PIZZA!
wonder whose favourite is it? XD
but i didn't take any, cause i shy mar =x
heh, been a long time since i've last had pizzas too T.T
think maybe Monday go eat with mah boys :D

oh ya, and for the first time in my life, i was served by an officer, which felt really strange..
then audrey came, heh, we all agreed that she's more attractive now, and i concluded that it's because she's become more feminine..

heh, then we were talking as usual, then sammy said, where's your girlfriend?
well, we broke up, she ditched me..

ok, awkward, so i decided to lift up the mood, and we talked about what kinda girls i look for..

hahahaha, ok, i gave alot of crappy answers
"she has to be smart, but not smarter than me"
"can't be taller than me"
"must be at least 16 and not more than 1 year older than me"
"know how to cook"
"nice"
"feminine"
"nice"

hahahaha, and audrey was like, "hahaha, as long as she's not better than you la!"
hahahahahahaha, and we all laughed at it..

and of course, i wasn't serious..
heh, just wanted to make them laugh i guess..
as long as i like her, i'll go for her, i don't really care about age, looks, nor if she can cook..

oh ya, and Jimmy's gonna go study in Malaysia soon, he's our future doctor!
we're gonna have one last stay over together with him before he leaves on the 25th..
shucks, we're gonna miss you bro..

we had a little private chat, we includes, Wei Tat, James, Jimmy and Andy..
well, they asked what happened between me and YL, and i basically told them everything..
and basically, everything is fucked, so i fucked everyone's mood..
we all agreed that it's fucked up, hahahahahaha..
but in a way, i'm glad it happened, i mean, i've learnt quite alot from it..

like what Jimmy said, "because you've sacrificed so much for her, because you changed so much for her, when she left you, it felt like you lost everything"
i agreed with that, cause, because of her, kenneth almost lost everything, friends, and probably family..
everything was drifting away from me, cause i'm too happy in my own "heaven"
love blinded me i guess, and i'm also kinda glad that it happened now, rather than, in the future..
i mean, she showed her "true colours" eh?
Andy was like, Derrick is a good guy, and i'm like, no he knows she has a boyfriend, he's a bastard!
no no, he showed you her true colours..
heh, better now than a few years later eh?

and he sent me this song



Vandals - My Girlfriend's Dead


I once had a girlfriend
but then one day she dumped me
and everywhere I'd go people would ask me
where she was.
I don't wanna talk about her
someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"My girlfriend's dead"

I say it's lukemia
or sometimes bulimia
Or a great big truck ran her over
and chopped off her head

I don't wanna talk about her
someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"she's dead!"

I guess there's a part of me
that likes the sympathy
or the looks on their faces when i tell them
how she passed away

I don't wanna talk about her
someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"She's dead!"

(My girlfriend's dead)
my girlfriend's dead you see
It's a total lie but it's easier on me
than having to admit that she likes someone else
(My girlfriend's dead)
my girlfriend's dead you know
Please change the subject
I'm going to go jump off a building
and join her in hell

I don't wanna talk about her
Someone always asks about her
So I tell them all
"She's dead!"

I once had a girlfriend
but then one day she dumped me
and everywhere I'd go people would ask me
where she was

I don't wanna talk about her
but someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"My girlfriend's dead!"

I don't wanna talk about her
but someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"My girlfriend's dead!"


===========

i was like, there's not meaning to this song -.-
i'm not gonna tell anyone she's dead..
then he was like, ya hor =.=

he's a real blockhead..
hahahahahahaha..
Audrey said that too!
we all laughed at Andy, well, it has always been like that..
we always make fun of Andy, he IS a blockhead, but a really nice one :D

well, i gave them a piece of advise, that's NOT to commit..
as usual, the usual piece of shit i gave them..
we're still too young to commit, seriously, and i told them if they wanted to, don't restrict themselves, not to change for her, otherwise they MIGHT end up like me..
i told them that at this phase of our lives, the most important thing is, Friends and FAMILY..

yea, so we went home after that, and apparently, something happened at home, my mother went beserk again, scold everybody, including my dad =.=

my sis came to fetch me home, and James and Wei Tat tagged along and alighted at my place..
well, the journey home was a stern and silent one..

heh, that's that..
i have to go change now, cause we're having dinner outside, as usual..
and we're probably gonna go to Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner again..
FUCK, i hate that place..

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Y'ALL!

yes, i am finally home..
heh, yes, i'm blogging again..
it's bloody alot of entries eh?

any way, i spent a close to 3hours long wait outside my house..
the weather was freaking hot, and my laptop gave up on my much faster than i anticipated..
shucks, i got so bored that i started reading the papers, and there was this article on blogging..


hmmmmm, why do people blog? well, we blog so that we can gain attention..
the article said that bloggers won't admit it..
what's wrong with it? there's nothing wrong, we do blog to gain attention, in a way..
no matter how you argue your way through, it will, eventually boil down to, gaining attention..
heh, we're all attention seekers what, it's human nature i believe..
well, as for the fame and fortune part..
i guess it doesn't really apply to me?
heh, but i really enjoy blogging, and letting my friends know about me =P
and my bitchings, hahahahahaha..
ok ok, oh ya, and is blogging healthy?
ok, according to the article, it isn't as healthy as we think it is..
everyone thinks that we're basically letting everything out, so it's supposed to be more or less "healthy" eh?
well, apparently, blogging makes us..
EGO in a way?
simply because it is always about, me, Me and ME!
heh, i'm not saying i'm not ego, i mean, i'm a guy, and no matter what you say, a guy has gotta be at least a teeny weeny bit of egoistic, otherwise it'll not be very healthy, in a way..
i mean, it's what makes us a man right?
in a way la..


any way, just some random bitching about the sunday article..
oh ya, and they mentioned how Jolin's boobs grew from tiny to bouncy..
heh, quite funny actually, i didn't actually read the article, i just glanced through and read the pictures and quotes, seriously, i think the paper enjoys doing such stuffs to celebs..
hahahahahahaha, too bad i guess XD

oh ya, and i really hate reading the papers, why?
cause it's freaking messy, and it annoys me alot..
i like reading alot, and i also like writing alot, but i cannot stand library books and the newspaper..
for the library books part, it's a personal preference, which i don't really understand also..
but for the papers part, i mean, they keep flapping, and sliding out of place..
it's friggin' annoying..

hmmm, i'm really tired now and i've got driving theory lessons at 7 50pm later..
guess i'll go take a shower and have dinner..
i stink from sitting outside for sucha long time, it was freaking warm i tell you..


KOSTA

O - U - T
OUT~!

wooooo~
today's probably one of the best days of my fucking life..
today morning someone took my keys, so i don't have them with me..
and now, nobody's at home, i'm trapped outside..
and... ...
I NEED TO PEE!!!

神啊！ 救救我吧！！！

and my mother is in town now..
great, simply fantastic!


sheesh, at least i've got my laptop..

*sings*
always look on the backside of life~



hahahahahaha, nef is going nuts again -.-
heh

what a bad kickoff for the day..
for the first time, i actually woke up yelling..
let me describe the situation to you..

nef is happily sleeping..
brother wakes up..
opens the door, leaves it open..
the door is left open, with the MOTHER FUCKING light shining directly at my face..
yes, nef is a light sleeper..
opens his eyes slightly, stares at the door..
blood starts to boil..
"didi... DIDI!?"
no reaction, ok, tries to calm down..
the harder i try, the more pissed off i get..
*BOOOOOM*
exploded, for a few moments, you can hear elephant foots steps coming from upstairs..
i was STORMED out of my room and realised he was still in the toilet..
fine, i walked back and shut the door..
nef doesn't slam doors..
lay on my bed..
can't get back to sleep..
PISSED OFF
turned around, so that my face is facing my bed..
yells, "ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH"
SUPER PISSED OFF
open the door and to head downstairs..
on the way down bumped into my brother..
"HOW MANY TIMES DID I TELL YOU TO SHUT THE DOOR AFTER YOU'VE OPENED IT?! NOW I CAN'T GET BACK TO SLEEP"
went downstairs, my face was probably blacker than that Bao Qing Tian..
reached downstairs, sat on my sofa..
turned on my laptop, and while it was loading..
i told my mother, "didi, didn't shut the door again, now i can't get back to sleep, he always does this" with an agitated tone..
and now i'm bitching here..



ok, i can tolerate alot of things, and this seriously PISS ME OFF..
besides, it aint even the first time..
the first time i blew off in public, was because i was happily snoozing off in class during Sec 3, then this group of clowns were playing and making a racket..
suddenly a bottle flew over and hit me in the head..
which immediately woke me up..
and... ...

picks up bottle..
"who did it"
the group turns over..
"WHO DID IT"
whole class turns over to look..
some guy told me it was another classmate..
"KNN CB %$^$%#^%$#@%!@#"
throws the bottle on the floor..
it landed with a loud thud..
the whole class was shocked..
the teacher was stumped..
nef made himself comfortable and went back to sleep..



hey, at least in this story there's a happy ending right?
nef went back to sleep..
oh ya, ended up that guy i yelled at? was the wrong guy..
the friend that told me it was him, was actually the one who threw it..

Morale of the story?
Do anything you want, but do not disturb when nef is sleeping..
you can wake him up, but do not make sudden of abrupt actions..
and do no repeatedly wake him up for no apparent reason, especially when you do it consecutively over a long period of time..
why?
IT PISSES HIM OFF

The End.

ok, since i'm so free now, i've decided to blog about my ultra long wishlist

#1 - Wei Tat's phone, i don't even know what model! hahaha, Nokia, 3G slide phone
#2 - a black Sony Cybershot T30
#3 - iPod Nano
#4 - actually this was supposed to be Energie belts, but my sis bought 2 new belts for me already! so it shall be, Nike Air! the new gloss series *drools*
#5 - Revoltage Striped Tees and Polos
#6 - New bag
#7 - CAR - preferably some convertible =x
#8 - Bape Star shoes =x

fuck la..
my msn sort sort..
i reboot com first then continue my wishlist =p

SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!
my sis bought me 2 new belts!
and they're from my FAVOURITE brands!
X Large and Revoltage!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

happy Happy HAPPY!
i aint got pictures yet, lazy to take =P
tonight then post them up here..

any way, song-of-the-week, for last week la =x

Trademark - Amazed

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

Chorus:
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark (ooh yeah)
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

I'm amazed by you, yeah

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
[Repeat]

Every little thing that you do
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you


http://www.bolt.com/KoStAr/audio/1796295

ENJOY ;D

i think there's something wrong with the file, it was fine before i uploaded it
but never mind, it sounds cute, hahahahaha..
the whole code was wrong, knn, but never mind, just click the link ;)