Dreamz FM - Should I Stay

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…


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heh, i guess i finally found a song that best describes how i feel..
honestly, for us, we're quite lucky eh?
i mean, we're the couple that were "accidentally in love", in a way..
well, fate brought us together, and i guess it's destiny that we're meant to part..
nobody expected the both of us to get together, neither did anyone expected the both of us to part..

that's life for you..
unexpected, hard to grasp..

i guess i owe her an apology for what i said..
i mean, i was behavin like a jerk and everything, although, i was completely blown off my feet when she said, "go out with friend also cannot"
i mean, afterall, i dare say that i've never ever restricted her, and, a date's a date, ahhh, let's forget about it..

i'm sorry for what i did at VR-zone..
i said some damn fucked up stuffs, and i guess an apology wouldn't make up for it..
oh well, i mean, if i were her, i'd be damn fucking pissed, and an apology aint gonna make up for it, so i guess, i'd understand if she doesn't accept my apology..


any way, my dad finally moved my bed away from the cupboard, and when he did, i was like, "what the fuck" i mean, when he should have moved it away, he doesn't, and when he shouldn't he did..
cause, that cupboard holds memories, all of my memories actually, everything she's ever made for me they're all inside..
sigh, and i picked up my courage and opened it, the first thing i saw was the puzzle i made for her, "I LOVE YOU", then i saw the card she made for me..
and i closed my cupboard, it was too much for me, my heart was breaking up again, then i felt... a kind of emptiness inside of me..

heh, and then Jocelyn called me, it sort of felt like an interview actually..
so, what colour do you like?
*answers*
what movies do you watch?
*answers*
what sports do you like?
*answers*

ok, then i realised that i'm not even trying to maintain a conversation, so i decided to at least give it a try..
so we had a small little conversation and she had to hang up, and then i got Nat to call me..
so we chat until i was kinda tired to keep the conversation going, so we hung up, and i had my long awaited sleep..

heh, sleep all the way until 12+ the next day, woke up to see Jocelyn's and Nat's SMS..
actually, i did hear Nat's sms last night, but i was too tired to pick up my phone, so i went to sleep instead..
heh, i replied neither of them..
Jocelyn seems so... desperate..
heh, thank God she doesn't have an internet connection..
*evil laughter* muahahahahaha

heh, and yesterday's soccer was great, and some how, Audrey seems to be attracting me in a way?
feminine?
i've seriously don't know why..
heh, and guess what?
Nicola is back! again, and from what i heard, she's gained some weight..
hmmm... ...

"Nicola is back"
Jimmy sort of emphasized on that and looked at me with a kinda cheeky look..
"what?"
hahahaha, i act innocent, acted like i didn't care, wahahahahaha..
honestly, i don't really care..
hmmm, there was nothing between us, nothing at all, no feelings, nothing to say to each other..
"but she gained some weight la"
"oh, where? on top?"
*roars of laughter from everybody*
hahahahahahahaha, ok, Nikky is considered well-developed at the age of 14, very well developed actually, especially if you compare her with Singapore girls, she's like woah.. she's pretty hot actually,
She's English mixed Chinese, heh, my favourite kind =x
wahahahahaha, kinda like Lana from Smallville?
heh..
and now she's 16, is she over-developed?
HAHAHAHAHAHA, ok ok, let's not get overboard here..

heh, and there's something i wanna share with you guys, and that's...
MY JERSEY!


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


ROFLMBO - Rolls on floor laughing my balls off


hey, you guys took all the nice numbers away, so i thought i'd try to be a little funny eh?

well, it's actually more than a little funny, it's freaking funny!
HAHAHAHAHA..
"HEY!!! MARK THAT 69! HE'S COMING!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, i'm like running and laughing away..

heh, they all took the pretty numbers away, so i thought i'd take a kinky number like... ...
69

HAHA..
"kenneth, do you know that's an illegal number?"
"oh? really?"
hahahahahahaha, acts innocent..
then my juniors, yea, my brother's friends, asked why is that number illegal..
i was like, "you really don't know?"
*roars of laughter*
then i forbid them from telling the kids what it meant, then they were like, "never mind, ask Forbes, he sure know"
heh, but in the end they kept pestering me, and i told them..
"oh... yuck! gross!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, hey, it's not like i wanted to tell you guys huh?
you guys asked for it!
i'll blog about the day after Audrey comes online and send me the pictures we took ;D

heh, by the way, i just came back from my 下午茶 with my parents at Bukit Panjang Plaza, we had Kaya Toast and i had 2 eggs..
after that me and Laaa went to Sweet Talk..
as usual, Milk Tea with pearls for her, and for me, i had an Ice Blended Chocolate..
ok, which tasted strange, cause there's this tea taste in my Ice Chocolate!
sheesh, i still prefer the one at Each-A-Cup in my school's library!


heh, a photo i took a freaking long time ago.. and how do you know it's old? heh, the stud on my ear is proof, heh, i removed it like 1 year ago? close to

so now here i am, slacking, still drinking my weird Ice Chocolate, and that Jocelyn wants to call me again -.-
God dammit..
heh, can't she tell i'm not interested?!
for crying out loud!

whatever la, i told her i'm not free to chat, and that's that..
take a hint gal..

heh, by the way, i didn't manage to catch the fireworks this year, except from my uncle's place..

well, our class abandoned me again, nothing new..
then last minute Christ had something on, some friend's birthday party, oh well..
so no fireworks for nef this year..

hmmm, i haven been feeling very good this few days, heh, especially since i screwed everything up between me and YL..
my mother asked me if i'm still in contact with her, and i was like, "yea, but i had an arguement with her, and we haven contacted each other ever since"
well, it's not her fault..
i fucked everything up..
heh, what a jerk..

and very fortunately for me, i chose a damn nice day to pick a fight..
it was on thursday, and i had a big test on friday, and as usual, i didn't finish studying, and after our quarrel, i couldn't concentrate at all..
i mean, ok, i already get distracted easily, and after that big arguement we had, i just couldn't concentrate at all..
it's like, i keep thinking about it..
heh, and ended up i didn't even finished half of what i needed to study..
luckily for me, HuaCu was sitting in front of me and i could see almost everything he wrote!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
we were all sharing answers la, i'm sorry, but the teacher's pretty stupid..
no cover page -.-
everybody's MCQ probably has the same answers, heh..
so i guess i didn't screw up that bad, maybe except for the short essay questions part, but i've already passed the module before i took the test, so everything should be ok, i guess..

any way, i've having migraines everyday for don't know how long already..
maybe it's a sign that my head's gonna explode soon?
no idea..
heh, but if it's gonna blow up, i really hope it'll blow up soon, cause sometimes it's abit unbearable..
if i suddenly burst into a sprint, after i stop i'll have a throbbing head splitting migraine which completely sucks ass..
it feels like my whole head is gonna blow up!

heh, after every session of soccer it feels that way..
sheesh..

well, i should really start studying now, i'm gonna go cancel the driving lesson i booked on next week's monday..
since it's on my exam week..
i booked it on that day cause i thought my exam week is THIS week, but this week is my study break, heh..
hopefully i'll clear stage 2 by this week..
and i'm gonna go take my fucking evaluation again, which i failed by 1 question..
fuck -.-

ok, so see y'all!
and once again, i'm sorry


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