ok ok, kenneth decided not to be lazy and blog about the past few days..
since someone... HINTED about me not blogging -.-

wait, i have to recall, my mind seems to be slightly slower cause of all the headaches i've been experiencing lately, and yes, it's a daily thing, and i'm quite used to it already, although sometimes it'll get really Really REALLY irritating..

ok, on friday, went to school early, reached at about 11 30am, INTENDED to do our report, but when i reached school, Jason decided to go for lecture, so?
sat at canteen and MSN-ed all the way until 2pm, went to workshop to hand up our project and headed down to King Albert Park for some Mackers..
after Mac, Levin and YH went to BBDC for their first bike theory lesson, which turned out to be lame, pointless and a complete waste of time, like what i told them..
and as for me, i headed down to my secondary school, Dunearn Sec!
ok, there's this rehersal for NDP, and i went back to visit my BB boys :D

there's one thing you should know before i carry on..
when it comes to BB, especially during parades, i expect everything to very orderly and stuff..
my boys must be ALERT, and discipline, if not..
heh, be prepared then..
afterall, we are a uniform group, we have to be discipline, furthermore, we're a Christian Organisation, we have to live up to our name eh?
Sure and Steadfast..

so, they started practising first, and...
ok, kenneth have some really HIGH expectations when it comes to BB, i expect alot from them..
i've also been a boy once, and i put in alot of effort, and naturally, i expect the same from them..
so?

"LOOK UP!"
"LOCK YOUR ARMS"
"ALERT!"
"WATCH YOUR DRESSING"
"DID YOU POLISH?"
"YOUR BELT IS TOO LOSE"

but i'm very disappointed, we're not supposed to hand out punishments anymore, so it's abit hard to keep them disciplined..
but then again, i don't really care..
i didn't punish them on that day though, heh, guess we'll have to wait for the next training camp, then i will make sure they all die..
i told one of my boys that i'll make all of them cry, muahahahahaha, i am evil, but one has to make sacrifices to gain things, i'm just trying to make them into MEN..
i've been through it, and i took it like a man, i didn't cry of course -.-
but the kids these days, sigh, quite hopeless..

and there's this mother fucker, Godwin, God Win, what a stupid name..
he's a stubborn bastard that has no respect for authority..
since Sec 1 until now, he's sec 4 now, he has absolutely no respect for any seniors, and i've simply had it with him the other day..

"Is Godwin part of the contigent?"
"yes"
"why he didn't fall in with you all?"
"... erm, i don't know"

fine, the CSM, in case you don't know CSM is the incharge for the day, doesn't know, so, i asked Godwin nicely first

"Godwin, fall in with them"
ignores
fine
"Godwin, why you don't want to fall in with them?"
ignores
pissed
off
already

wait, wait, wait..

"james, go tell the teacher-in-charge that Godwin doesn't want to fall in"

he went to tell the teacher-in-charge, and he do nothing..

"james, you tell Godwin if he don't want to fall in, then he'll not join in the rehearsal, tell him to go sit down at the concourse"

james went to talk to him, fucker didn't fall in with them, and stayed on..
SUPER
PISSED
OFF

"Godwin, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO FALL IN WITH THEM, THEN YOU'RE NOT PART OF THE CONTIGENT, WHEN THE PARADE STARTS, I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOU HERE, YOU ARE NOT PART OF THE PARADE, WHEN THE PARADE STARTS YOU GO TO THE CONCOURSE AND SIT"

shocked..
so? went to complain to the teacher-in-charge..

so we settled our differences then..
"he's not even a primer, he has no respect for me why should i respect him?"
you see, this bloody fucker expect me to respect him when he has no respect for anybody the moment he came into the BB, and everyone fucking knows about it
"Godwin, you are well known for being STUBBORN"
he didn't expect me to be so straightforward, and the teacher-in-charge, Mr Poh, no, he's not Hua Cu -.- was kinda blown off his feet as well..
ok, then Mr Poh basically tried to meditate..
i know i'm in the wrong, first, i am not in uniform, second, i actually do not have much authority..
Mr Poh : if you do the right thing at the wrong time, the right thing also becomes a wrong thing
you think i don't know meh?
Godwin says he's trying to help by "GUIDING" the CSM from outside of the contigent..
boy, you can go suck my balls, you do not know SHIT about drills..
Mr Poh : Godwin, i know you are a DRILL MASTER
ok, if you looked at James face, you can see him smile for a split second and then he calms down..
if you looked at me, i immediately laughed and turned my head and continue laughing..
hahahahahaahahaha
JOKE OF THE YEAR
Godwin, the DRILL MASTER..

i'd be fucked if he's the drill master..
i can do drills a thousand times better than him with my eyes closed..

these kind of things, no need to be shy, it is funny, just laugh..
Mr Poh continued his pep talk and we pretty much listened..
in the end he "packed up" everything with a prayer..

and he told me the shake Godwin's hands..
fine, i did that, but if he expected me to apologise, he can jolly well FUCK OFF!
i mean, i know i'm in the wrong, but i'm not gonna say sorry, no matter what..
and knowing Godwin, he probably still thinks he's right..
what a moron..

any way, parade ended, and James had to wait for his girlfriend, or rather, stead, as what they call themselves..
speaking of STEADS, this is one thing, that i do not agree with..
heh, YL used it once on us, and i talked to her about it, and she never used it again..
firstly, i do not recognise the word STEAD..
it's stupid, it's immature, and it is so... how do i say it..
hmmm, it's not as close as girlfriend..

don't believe you try saying it
"hey, this is my stead"
"hey, this is my girlfriend"
which one do you prefer?
i prefer the latter..

also, i've never used stead before..
personal preference i guess..
heh

any way, ya, they're having this concert rehersal as well..
see little girls dancing around on the stage, and malays with their electric guitars making alot of noise on the stage..

to summarize the concert, i'll use 3 words..
it was boring.

yea, that's that..
his little girlfriend went to change and we left..
oh ya, and his girlfriend is really little -.- 14 this year, small and skinny..
james is slightly taller than me and fat, so it's abit opposite of each other, and james is 17 this year..
sheesh did i say he's fat?
ok, because he IS fat HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and he knows it, because we remind him XD

so they went for dinner i think, and i went home..
watched the last episode of the 9pm show on channel 8..
the ending pissed me off..
i don't like the ending, period..

that's the problems with local productions, they fuck the ending..
although some people liked the ending, but in my opinion, there were still quite a few things that were left unsettled, hence, making me not very... satisfied..

so that's that, friday's over with..
time for saturday..


11am in the morning
*phone rings*
"eh kenneth, where are you? want to come out for soccer?"
*still half asleep*
"huh... ... where?"
"bukit panjang, street soccer court, eh come down la"
"orh... ... oooook... ... what... ... ... time?"
"11 30 at bukit panjang LRT station"
"ok... ... until... what... ... time?"
"about 1 pm then we're leaving"
"oook..."
"SEE YOU THERE AR!"
"yea... sure... bye"

so i woke up reluctantly, brushed my teeth, came downstairs, turned on my laptop and had breakfast cum lunch..

then i realised i won't be able to make it, so i sms-ed Jimmy to go ahead without me, i'll join them after my meal..
well, i eat pretty slowly =P
so i took my time and i arrived at 12+
hahahahahaha, luckily we played until 2+ instead of 1, otherwise my trip would be quite a waste of time eh?

had fun though, and after that i was asked to join them for their BBQ, which i agreed to..
so?
went home, with a terrible terrible headache, it was the worst one i've had recently..
felt like my head's gonna blow up..
so, i went home, drank a bottle of Yakult, and it felt good..
cause i was feeling really warm and everything..
poured a glass of carrot juice, ahhh, my favourite, felt really good..
went back, since there's a little bit left, i poured everything out..
had half a glass of carrot juice, then my mother told me she made barley, so i took a cup and added ice, ahhh, good, i love barley too..
BARLEY and CARROT JUICE, my 2 favourite drinks in the world..
ahhhhh, shiok, then i drank yet another cup..
sheesh, i really drank alot..

actually, i decided the shower, pop a few panadols and take a nap before i head down for the BBQ..
then, i saw my brother playing Dota, so i sat beside him and watched him, then when his game ended i joined him, and we played 3 games together..
then i realised i was late and i haven showered!
so, i went to shower..
chose my clothes, and made my hair..

and i went to meet James, his girlfriend and Wei Tat..
surprisingly, they we even later than me -.-
they watched CLICK and said it's a good movie..

hmmm, i'll comment about it, AFTER i watch it with Wei Liang and LaLa :D
he's coming back 2 weeks later..

then we headed to Sammy's place..
and the guy, was seriously, trying to be funny
it was only 6+
and he sms-ed us

"the BBQ is ending, see you guys next year"
WTF?! not even 7pm and the BBQ is ending, i bet there's not much people there, that's why he said his
then he sent another sms, which i can't remember..
was something something then BYE BYE..

ok -.-
we just went ahead and guess what?
i was right, cause everyone was late so he did that..

actually, i wasn't really a BBQ, it's more like, Satay only..
then the usual mee fen, and they odered PIZZA!
wonder whose favourite is it? XD
but i didn't take any, cause i shy mar =x
heh, been a long time since i've last had pizzas too T.T
think maybe Monday go eat with mah boys :D

oh ya, and for the first time in my life, i was served by an officer, which felt really strange..
then audrey came, heh, we all agreed that she's more attractive now, and i concluded that it's because she's become more feminine..

heh, then we were talking as usual, then sammy said, where's your girlfriend?
well, we broke up, she ditched me..

ok, awkward, so i decided to lift up the mood, and we talked about what kinda girls i look for..

hahahaha, ok, i gave alot of crappy answers
"she has to be smart, but not smarter than me"
"can't be taller than me"
"must be at least 16 and not more than 1 year older than me"
"know how to cook"
"nice"
"feminine"
"nice"

hahahaha, and audrey was like, "hahaha, as long as she's not better than you la!"
hahahahahahaha, and we all laughed at it..

and of course, i wasn't serious..
heh, just wanted to make them laugh i guess..
as long as i like her, i'll go for her, i don't really care about age, looks, nor if she can cook..

oh ya, and Jimmy's gonna go study in Malaysia soon, he's our future doctor!
we're gonna have one last stay over together with him before he leaves on the 25th..
shucks, we're gonna miss you bro..

we had a little private chat, we includes, Wei Tat, James, Jimmy and Andy..
well, they asked what happened between me and YL, and i basically told them everything..
and basically, everything is fucked, so i fucked everyone's mood..
we all agreed that it's fucked up, hahahahahaha..
but in a way, i'm glad it happened, i mean, i've learnt quite alot from it..

like what Jimmy said, "because you've sacrificed so much for her, because you changed so much for her, when she left you, it felt like you lost everything"
i agreed with that, cause, because of her, kenneth almost lost everything, friends, and probably family..
everything was drifting away from me, cause i'm too happy in my own "heaven"
love blinded me i guess, and i'm also kinda glad that it happened now, rather than, in the future..
i mean, she showed her "true colours" eh?
Andy was like, Derrick is a good guy, and i'm like, no he knows she has a boyfriend, he's a bastard!
no no, he showed you her true colours..
heh, better now than a few years later eh?

and he sent me this song



Vandals - My Girlfriend's Dead


I once had a girlfriend
but then one day she dumped me
and everywhere I'd go people would ask me
where she was.
I don't wanna talk about her
someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"My girlfriend's dead"

I say it's lukemia
or sometimes bulimia
Or a great big truck ran her over
and chopped off her head

I don't wanna talk about her
someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"she's dead!"

I guess there's a part of me
that likes the sympathy
or the looks on their faces when i tell them
how she passed away

I don't wanna talk about her
someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"She's dead!"

(My girlfriend's dead)
my girlfriend's dead you see
It's a total lie but it's easier on me
than having to admit that she likes someone else
(My girlfriend's dead)
my girlfriend's dead you know
Please change the subject
I'm going to go jump off a building
and join her in hell

I don't wanna talk about her
Someone always asks about her
So I tell them all
"She's dead!"

I once had a girlfriend
but then one day she dumped me
and everywhere I'd go people would ask me
where she was

I don't wanna talk about her
but someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"My girlfriend's dead!"

I don't wanna talk about her
but someone always asks about her
so I tell them all
"My girlfriend's dead!"


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i was like, there's not meaning to this song -.-
i'm not gonna tell anyone she's dead..
then he was like, ya hor =.=

he's a real blockhead..
hahahahahahaha..
Audrey said that too!
we all laughed at Andy, well, it has always been like that..
we always make fun of Andy, he IS a blockhead, but a really nice one :D

well, i gave them a piece of advise, that's NOT to commit..
as usual, the usual piece of shit i gave them..
we're still too young to commit, seriously, and i told them if they wanted to, don't restrict themselves, not to change for her, otherwise they MIGHT end up like me..
i told them that at this phase of our lives, the most important thing is, Friends and FAMILY..

yea, so we went home after that, and apparently, something happened at home, my mother went beserk again, scold everybody, including my dad =.=

my sis came to fetch me home, and James and Wei Tat tagged along and alighted at my place..
well, the journey home was a stern and silent one..

heh, that's that..
i have to go change now, cause we're having dinner outside, as usual..
and we're probably gonna go to Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner again..
FUCK, i hate that place..

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Y'ALL!