sigh, i just had a really bad start for the day..

actually, i wanted to blog about yesterday today morning, but i just had this dream..
sigh, dreams... ... ... ... are merely just, false hope, illusions created by our minds, though some times, it does reflect what we really want, what we think of.. but i still hate them..

I had this dream, sigh, i'm considering whether i should include the whole thing..
whatever, it's just a dream, i know she won't do whatever that's in it, at least, not yet..

here's the brief description
I had this dream, yes, the 2 of them, the moved in together, which, naturally made me sad right..

yes, then something happened that made me feel great, you know, i felt like i was flying, literally..
we met, i can't remember where, the setting was white, some what like heaven..
then, she looked into my eyes, and told me, i'm what she really want in life, she loves me, and wants to spend the rest of her life with me..
she said that she's been thinking of it for a long time, talking to many people, and her friends, and she decided on that..

then suddenly, i can't see her any more, i sms-ed her, cause i knew, it's probably too good to be true, and guess what happened after that?
i woke up, i fucking woke up..
and realise it's all just a dream, why? you took me up so high and threw me down, back down to square one..

i couldn't help it, i just laid on my bed, and teared.. and teared..

maybe it's really all just a facade, maybe..