sigh..
Lala is going to Malaysia, and will only be back by Sunday..

It's like a really bad timing, i don't know what i'm gonna do these few days.
but i'm not gonna make her stay, cause i'll be wasting her money, and it'll be unfair for her..

she loaned some money from me so cause she only has enough to pay for her trip..
i can't expect her to eat grass right?
so i loaned her 80 bucks..
i don't really give a shit about money, i have no other way of spending them too..


sigh, she's leaving now..
i
am
damn
sad


yesterday, everything seemed fine, i was able to take in everything and smile, and say i'm ok, but..
fuck this, this cycle, it's tormenting me..
i don't know how long i can take this shit..
someone please put a bullet through my head..


sigh,

lavinia♥*:: theweekendESCAPE said:
you are a strong boy


how i wish this is true, i'm a god damn pussy, i cry over every single shit..
and i had to fucking make my sis cry again before she left..
i hugged her and cried..
FUCK FUCK FUCK, why did she have to leave..
why.......
sigh, and i'm still crying..
wtf is this man..

sigh, i really don't know what i'm gonna do for all my nights now..
sigh..



oh ya, both my presentation and event were fucked up..
i don't wanna pull down my group members, sigh..

God, please take my life away...